15.november 2007

Somehow strange day.

Have you ever had a feeling that everything is against you and you can still resist? It’s like devil is making you to do wrong things but you are fighting and you don’t know why. Everything seem to be black around you but you know that it is a temptation and you mustn’t believe in it. Tomorrow everything will be better. Those situations are maybe familiar to you but…it is a real devil in you…and he is fighting with all your goodness you are ready to give to the world.

Smth very bad started happening to me since yesterday. My honey bunny….Manca :( I am a garbage??? Look like a Whore??? Never mind….those are not sincere words….but they are now told by him and they became alive that way. I don’t care.

People are pushing me in the school, on streets…What’s the matter…

But I keep running straight….there’s no other way.

My family is ruined….I don’t give a fuck. I am alive! I have my own life and I am learning to control it….

Panta rei! Nothing but nothing will be the same tomorrow neither my love nor my soul.